I’m going to find somethig beautiful today.
The odd thing about gabapentin is that when you take a heavy amount of said substance the effects only become apparent when you wake up the next day, I feel calm.
I think i’m going to go find something beautiful today.
…why did I throw away one of my shirts, it looks fine.
you know maybe it’s better I don’t know. That’s staying in the trash.
1:05 AM - I have taken 2 more tabs of ambien, earlier at 9:30 I had taken some and gone through an adventure whilst on the computer, attempted to draw a picture and ended up with a few lines, a baby, and a quote saying “all falling apart” I do not remember drawing the picture nor do I remember what falling apart means, though I can only think that means that I was about to pass out later on, which I did and now i’m awake again. Will report back in 20 minutes at 1:25.
- this time I need to find something to hug, when you’re in the state of infatuation with everything you need a buddy to come along with you.
- I’m shivering a lot though, I can see how people could get addicted to this substance, a small hallucinatory experience along with soothed muscles and sleeping to boot, why they prescribe my father this narcotic is beyond me, he refuses to smoke weed but pops this shit like they’re butter-mints.
- There’s a chance I might go into the street and wreck minor havoc
The only logical answer at this point, is to take more ambien, then see what that causes, I’ve never been past 2, this is for science!
1:20 AM - 1:20 is good enough, I now have 4 tabs of what Dr. Quak calls them ambien, the side effecs included. having fun, falling a sleep, seeing the spirits of yore in your bedroom window, increasingly difficult to type on this canvas when the words won’t stop moving. FUCK YOU I SAY, I CAN HANDLE THIS THIS IS PUSSY SHIT GIVE ME SOMETHIN BIGGER,!
I BOUGHT THE TICKET NOW LET ME RIDE THE RIDE
The odd thing about this substance is the idea that you are in a different place then where you started, your reflections started to talk back, when you place these pills into your system you are in for a treat, a very odd, surreal treat. Imagine if you had a delicious 5th ave candy bar in your pocket for safekeeping, now take the candy bar out, that’s right your mouth is gonna pop bb. Take a bite of it no WHAT STOP
you’ve biting your coffee table for the past 4 minutes because you though it was chocolate.
1:30 AM- i’m now worried that i have developed a resistance to it due to taking two, passing out, waking up, and then taking some more, I just feel that many pills in my skinny frame is eventually going to do nothing when push comes to shove i’ll take one last binge and record it for a good anti-bullying campaign, [state ordered]
1:50 AM I put a xeno mask on and went around looking for intruders and the what not, repeatedly yelling I AM A DRUG ADDLED MANIAC WITH A KNIFE. That cat was not amused.
Writing things about drugs is haaaaawrd
I want to just post down whatever is going on through my mind and cut out the little details that i’m sure to forget anyways. alright, the 3rd one, was supposed to hit my body by now, it’s verry possible that I won’t be able to finish this Erowid post, at this point it would seem that walking through nature with warm clothes on a cigarette sounds great, maybe i’ll make some hot chocolate… well that last one maybe not so much as that’s a lot of effort and i’d rather just take another ambien. [searching up lethal doses now, don’t worry]
it’s become apparent that I have a resistance to it now. I must consume 2 mabye 3 more and that’s final, never touching the bottle for a while.
PunPun with a huge dong